Chapter 10
MYSTICAL IDENTIFICATION WITH CHRIST
When two people love each other deeply a transformation process takes place because each one desires to become like the other. A union is verified by tending to unity.
St. John of the Cross says: “Each one seems to be the other and both are not two but one”. This can happen between Christ and a soul that loves Him with the greatest love that a human being is capable of: its humanity comes to a point where it identifies itself with the Humanity of Christ. Alexandrina and her Jesus are an example of this.
The extraordinary fact that Alexandrina survived feeding herself solely with Jesus (Eucharist and Blood transfusion) “shows the world the value of the Eucharist” (Ch 9), but it is also the signal that Jesus desired to establish a particularly strong union with her, a complete union. Alexandrina, for her part, corresponded with a total, oblative love, she wanted “to lose herself”, she wanted “to disappear” in her Spouse, in her Everything, annulling her “I”. It can be seen here how union becomes unity.
It is beautiful to think about two rain drops running down the glass pane of a window: if they approach in such a way as to touch each other, they become a single drop: one disappears into the other.
The first steps of this way had already been taken in 1928, when Alexandrina felt a strong analogy between her condition of a paralysed, bed-ridden prisoner, and that of Jesus in the tabernacle (vide Ch 2).
Since 1942, the intimate reliving of the Passion (ch. 11), not only on Fridays but more intensely and interiorly, brings her to a state favourably conducive to unity. Look what Jesus says to her:
My daughter, love, love, love! Your heart and mine is one: you are wholly transformed into Me. I am your life: you do not have human life, you have divine life. You do not have the life of Earth, you live the life of Heaven. Your life will always have thorns, a thorn will penetrate another thorn and, thus crucified like Me, you will pass into Heaven, nailed on the cross for my love. S (18-9-43)
Of course the transformation is mutual.
Your life is the life of Christ: Christ lives transformed into you. You climb Calvary, because I cannot climb it now. You carry the cross, because I cannot carry it either. You are a sacrificed and immolated lamb. You surrender your life in the greatest agony, because I cannot suffer like this now. S (16-2-45)
Alexandrina was very conscious of not being, of herself, a human creature, capable of fulfilling alone the great mission of the salvation of souls.
My will is ready, but nature, poor nature, dislikes suffering so much; it tries many times to say: I cannot, I cannot more!
And it is true, Jesus, that I cannot. But You can! It is You who suffer, it is You who walk Calvary, it is You who take up and love the cross which You give me.
I cannot, I do not live, do not suffer, do not love - I do not exist. But what exists is the breath of your life that passes through me. S (8-7-49)
Concerning this “breath”, in 1955, Jesus was to say to her:
Have courage! Repeat always your “I believe”. (…) This breath has gone out over the whole world; through you (humanity) has already received the breath of grace, the breath of love. Those who take advantage of it are fortunate indeed. S (20-5-55)
Let us return to 1949. Jesus reminds her of the saving value of her extraordinary life.
Christ is in your eyes, Christ is on your lips, Christ is in your thoughts, in your heart and in your soul: it is the living Christ, acting in all your movements, in all your life. Courage, my daughter! You are Christ reclothed; it is Christ grafted on your members, on your body, so that the work of redemption, the work of salvation continues. Christ cannot suffer now, but the work of salvation must go on. S (8-4-49)
You live in Christ and for Christ. All your life is Christ. You are the joy and the glory of the Almighty. Trust, trust, my daughter: I work and operate great wonders in you for my glory and for the benefit of souls. S (30-12-49)
Alexandrina was always afraid of being deceived about the mystical phenomena which she experienced but did not understand. She was afraid they might be the fruit of her imagination. Jesus assured her:
Do not fret if you do not understand your life, because it is impossible for the human creature to understand the divine life: in Heaven you will understand it. In Heaven you will see without a doubt that you only lived through Me. S (4-2-50)
My daughter, my daughter, what a union of our hearts! There is nothing that can separate them. We suffer in the same pain, we love in the same love: I am one with you. I live in you the same life that I live with the Father, and I am one with you as I am with Him. I came to Earth for the Father, in the name of the Father, to save mankind. You, in My name, in Me and for Me, continue My work of salvation. S (1-7-50)
Let us now look at one of Alexandrina’s ecstasies of love, the love we have spoken of as a blood transfusion:
My head lay on Jesus’ lap. It seemed me to be in the centre of an immense, infinite fire of love. These flames, this fire penetrated in my whole being. My heart and my soul had taken a new life. I was no longer me: there was only Jesus. I felt as if I fell asleep there… (as happens during a transfusion).
What a dilatation I experienced (in the heart)! My tiny heart was vast as Heaven.
I did not have the strength to contain such immensity.
Jesus, Jesus, I cannot! I do not offer resistance to the greatness of your love.
I am here, my daughter: with Me you have nothing whatever to fear. I conquer, I suffer, I love in you. You are transformed into Christ, you live the life of Christ, you give the life of Christ to souls. S (15-9-50)
Two hearts in one heart - Jesus says - set on fire in one single flame, linked in one single chain of love. S (26-12-52)
There follows here a brief dialogue which gives evidence of the generosity of Alexandrina’s love for her Jesus.
My divine Heart suffers through your heart; my divine Heart loves through your love. I love, and I love you; you love with my love, you give yourself for my love; you spent yourself, you are consumed by love for me and for souls.
You suffer and I suffer in you. (...) I suffer in you without suffering. I am the strength in you. You suffer so that I do not suffer. You love so that I am more and more loved. All pain is in your heart, and the consolation and the joy is mine.
It is well, it is right, Jesus. With this I am content. That my heart should suffer so that Yours does not, this is my desire. To love You and to console You are my greatest concerns. To spend myself for You, to do everything and to suffer everything for You without wasting one moment, my Jesus. I do not have, no, I do not have any other desire. Forgive me, my Love, I am so weak, so, so weak, my Jesus. Make my life perfect, just as you would have it.
O light, O shining sun, O continuation of the work of Jesus on earth! Your mission is perfect and with all perfection you fulfil it. S (18-9-53)
Now, to conclude, still on the theme of unity, here are two fragments, all the stronger and more incisive for their brevity. Jesus says:
I am the
light of your eyes,
the movement of your lips,
the love and the Lord of your heart. S (3-9-48)
And Alexandrina, in Gethsemane, relives the Passion:
I was Jesus
and Jesus was me:
we two were
the same offering to Heaven. S (15-8-45)
