I remember the treasure that Jesus and our Heavenly Mother
stored in my heart, but I no longer crave to guard it and do
everything for it. Now it does not preoccupy me. I'm tired as if
I had done everything for it. What makes me
now, and suffer indeed, is the feeling that everything I could
do to save it I did, and now I can’t do anything else.
O my Jesus, what shall I do, what shall I suffer? I want to save
humanity at all costs, and my soul feels that it has nothing
more to give, nothing more to do, that there is no suffering
which it has not suffered for it.
Oh my God, what a painful martyrdom! You have the remedy, my
Jesus, You have the remedy for this evil. You have my body, you
have my blood, it is Yours, use it, so that the world might be
saved. Do not let it to get out of my heart. Do not let me have
one more moment of life in which I am not able to love You and
to love souls.
The world, Jesus, souls have been bought by your blood. I do not
want your blood to be trampled underfoot; I do not want it to
stand as a condemnation for souls. I'm ready, my Jesus, to give
my life every moment, while the world is the world, if possible,
to save them.
Jesus, I am a victim of the world, but first of all of your
On the 13th, among esteemed visitors, came one I had expected
and need very much (Fr
Umberto, as stated below). I was waiting for him but when he
arrived I received him coldly; I was indifferent to him. I
looked at him and sometimes it seemed to me that I didn’t see
him, that he wasn’t a reality. He was a prisoner, released from
prison, visiting a corpse.
pain, O sorrow, O appalling darkness!
It's too late to give me joy, it's too late for my poor soul to
receive comfort. My eyes seemed not to see the second robbery
that was inflicted on me. What will happen when the first
— Jesus, I am your victim, your love; the salvation of souls at
all costs, at all costs. Now I suffer for my coldness, my
indifference for this visitor to whom I owe so much. It seems to
me that I appeared to dislike him, that I hurt him. O Jesus,
always all for your love.
During the night, which I spent almost all the time alert and
united to Jesus in the midst of a sea of
of body and soul, I was viciously assaulted by the devil. I
fought against him for nearly two hours. Sometimes he told me
that I sinned with someone, then he
told me that I sinned with others. He called for his comrades to
come to sin with me. When I would not say or do what he wanted,
he was much more enraged, and tried to leap upon me and crush
me. When I could, I cried to Heaven; when I could not, I fought
alone. In extreme moments, I cried:
Heavenly Mother, Heavenly Mother, look at
the danger I'm in, save me, do not let me sin or stain my body
or my soul!
One only dies when Jesus wants. If that was not so, I would have
died during this battle. I was lying, bathed in sweat and out
over a ghastly abyss without so much as a thin wire to support
me. I was looking into it with dread when I heard Jesus telling
— This gulf, my daughter, is the abyss of the vicious ones,
given to pleasure and to the flesh. Woe to them without your
reparation! My angel, angel dear, make haste to accomplish your
mission! At the same moment, a gentle breeze brought me to my
pillow. Jesus continued:
— My daughter, let us console each other. I will share my
sorrows with you, and you share yours with me.
Courage, you do not offend Me. After your battles your soul is
purer and brighter to my eyes divine. What a great consolation
you give to my Divine Heart which has been so wounded!
— O my Jesus, it costs me so much, this pain! I'm so afraid of
sinning! Watch over me, I want only what pleases You. See all
the suffering that goes on in my soul. What sad agony!
— Courage, my beloved. I get great satisfaction from your agony.
Your death gives life to souls. I did not let you feel the
consolation of my dear Father Umberto’s visit, neither was he
comforted to see you; souls derived much advantage from this. It
was that men might see that when a soul embraces the cross and
is firm in the love of Jesus, it is not led by natural
Give my Father Umberto my thanks for coming to give life to the
soul of my spouse, my beloved victim. Give him my thanks,
blessings and love - to him and the entire congregation. Only
one wing has been affected, only one flight has been curtailed.
This is why I send you blessings and thanks to the entire
congregation. It is the reward that I give along with my Blessed
Mother whom he loves, and she loves him so much. With her eyes,
in union with him, so much good has done to souls! I want him to
support you, since your dear father who longs to fly to you
cannot protect you; they have cut his wings and, not satisfied
with that, have tied them to his sides. How much this has hurt
my Divine Heart! But, oh how much consolation for my Divine
Heart and profit to the souls I have taken from his suffering!
Take courage, therefore, to fight whatever comes; courage and
fortitude, like the soldiers who in the middle of the thickest
battle do not even tremble.
I give the certainty of victory to all who take care of my
My daughter, I will not be long in coming with my Blessed Mother
to give you our divine life. You need it; it is for it that you
live. Your life is being stolen from you by sinners and the
persecutors of my divine cause.
— I feel faint, Jesus, I am leaning towards death, not to this
death I feel, but for the death that is life that gives me
eternity, that gives me Heaven, where I cannot be afraid to
offend You. Come pain, come love, I bless all that comes from
Your divine hands. I count on You alone, for myself I
only have doubts and fears.
Jesus withdrew or hid; He was silent in my soul, my soul so
wounded, so fearful of having sinned. The time of the visit of
the Blessed Sacrament was approaching and the struggle against
Satan had not faded from my memory.
How sad to receive Jesus after having gone through such ugly
I spent the day dead to everything, only alive to pain. Oh my
Jesus, how sad is my life, I would be happy, very happy, if, in
the midst of all this, I loved only You and souls were saved!